The constant inundation of violence here gets to be too much: guns pointed at your face as you pass through the checkpoints, drawings of guns in art class, plastic guns on the sidewalk, sonic booms and f-16 flyovers in the middle of the day by the IDF (tactics of terror, as we try and play with kids), being surrounded by israeli military bases on all sides of this city, families with abuse, passing alleyways and seeing kids throwing rocks, when four year old friend bites you for fun, groups of men surrounding you because you are a woman and being completely frightened that you don't know what they are capable of, posters of militant groups and martyrs everywhere, seeing men and kids who have been disfigured by the IDF. Men who tell stories of missing their children grow up because they were jail for "supporting" militias --> i.e. feeding their brother. Or for no reason at all.
It is all too much.